As I sit here drinking my morning coffee, my 6 month old baby boy is sleeping peacefully. My first child slept wonderfully at night, all night, from the age of 6 weeks old, and she always had a problem sleeping for naps during the day. My second child wakes up anywhere from 2-4 times at night, every night. I am realizing, as I type this, that some days I have absolutely no energy to do the daily duties of motherhood, let alone be feminine. Hopefully this can be a learning curve for us all.
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I used to be a jeans-and-tee kinda girl, until just a few years ago. After I met my husband, I noticed that he responded better to me when I'd dress up, or put on makeup, or fix my hair. Now, see, me changing for him wasn't what I had in mind when we got married. After all, I was an adult! I could choose how I wanted to look and dress. So I only dressed up for special occasions, and he continued to love me for myself and was patient with me.
When our daughter turned 3, she started to tell me that she liked me better in dresses and heels. Still, I continued on the same path. I find jeans and tee shirts extremely comfortable. The bigger the shirt, the more comfortable! So, why was I so resistant to wearing cute and feminine clothes? Was it because I was truly comfortable in the androgynous clothes, or because I was uncomfortable or ashamed with myself?
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What I ask you today, is to start with what is happening inside. Ask yourself questions to find out why you aren't feminine, or why you don't take pride in yourself or your body. You might be surprised to find out!
Here's a list of questions to get you started:
*When was the last time I felt feminine?
*What was my personality like?
*Did a life-changing event happen to me?
*Am I willing to try my hand at being feminine?
*What things in my life can improve by me embracing my femininity?
*Do I feel like I will lose anything?
*What am I scared of?
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This post was written to challenge ourselves to look at whatever happened. Little girls love dressing up and putting on makeup. They enjoy being a girl.
I am not asking you to start right now, unless you want to, but what I am asking is:
Are you using motherhood as an excuse to not take pride in yourself, or is there an underlying issue?
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